Strangetimez

Well, it was interesting to go back and read some of my older posts, especially to see how perspectives can change so drastically, so quickly.

Short version – Ive met someone who Im definitely falling for.  She is incredible, fun, happy, spontaneous, caring, kind, sexy, cheeky, energetic (I could keep going!).  I still wake up and wonder if its real or I was dreaming… but it isnt a dream!  Its amazing, I never thought I would ever find someone who shares a connection on so many levels, and is happy to let me be completely myself.  Meeting her even changed my perspective of the world.  Things that used to bother me, just dont anymore.  Its great, and such a new feeling… I guess I feel like a high school kid with his first girlfriend

So, it seems that I have joined  one of the popular belief system of the world – that there is such a thing as true love, which apparently means I no longer live in the real world and am now as crazy as a fair chunk of the population! 

I thought I would start recording all the things I have learned about life, maybe in an effort to clear my head a bit.  Maybe as a bit of an experiment… Also a way to vent my frustrations at the world… whatever the reason, here they are.  In no particular order…

1. People are selfish and rude
2. Not everyone is selfish and rude, but most are.  A few will surprise you
3. Ignorance really is bliss
4. No matter how much you try to prepare for something, something you hadn’t thought of will almost always happen
5. People are deluded and do not live in reality
6. Living in reality sucks, and thus why people delude themselves
7. The world isnt as nice and as good as people will have you believe
8. Most people take and dont give
9. When someone strenuously objects to something, its usually because its true
10. People often project their problems onto others (Transference)
11. If you want to see the worst in people, go for a drive when traffic is busiest
12. If you want to see the best in people, look at a disaster, war, or other tragedy.  Difficulty, trouble, and adversity seems to bring people together.
13. People like drama and trouble, and thats why ‘Reality TV’ is popular
14. There is no one path in life, everyone has their own, and some are easier than others
15. Dont judge someone too quickly, but trust your instincts
16. People love to talk about themselves, and don’t want to hear about you very often
17. If you are nice to others, and helpful, you will get used by most people
18. Women are selfish, ambiguous, confusing, have no idea of their emotions
19. Complimenting people just makes them arrogant and self centered, and you will not be appreciated or respected for it.  You will just get used.
20. Everyone lies, even to those that may matter.
21. The few who do not lie do not get respected for it
22. People mostly only care about themselves.  If they care about someone else, its only usually only to pad their own ego
23. Love makes you vulnerable and weak, and you will be exploited for it, or it will be thrown in your face

I finally got around to reading the third issue of Black magazine (a good read if you like dark culture, horror movies, etc).  I was flicking through it and came to a page with the following list:

1. Satan represents indulgence, instead of abstinence
2. Satan represents vital existence, instead of spiritual pipe dreams
3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom, instead of hypocritical self-deceit
4. Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it, instead of love wasted on ingrates
5. Satan represents vengeance, instead of turning the other cheek
6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible, instead of concern for psychic vampires
7. Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his “divine spiritual and intellectual development”, has become the most vicious animal of all
8. Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification
9. Satan has been the best friend the church has ever had, as he has kept it in business all these years

I was, to understate, surprised.  I have been searching for a religious aspect to life as I have felt for some time that this important aspect of life has been missing for me.  Indoctrinated in traditional societal rules, I initially dismissed the article, but after giving it an open minded view, I quickly learned that “Satanism” is not at all what the popular media and religions have portrayed.

I have always leaned towards mysticism, the supernatural, and other darker aspects of life, but have been told by the hypocrites that this is bad.  So, I wandered around aimlessly in the spiritual landscape, adrift because I have not found a faith that represents my experiences and understanding of the way the world works.

Out of desperation I read the full article, only to learn that the naysayers have completely misrepresented the views of Satanism.  In fact, they need Satanism in order to justify their own existence (see #9 above).  To me, this seems to be the other side of the same coin.  Both necessary for existence and balance, but one side represents abstinence, piety, control, and faith without evidence.  The other seems to represent hedonism, vital existence, realism, freedom to feel and experience without guilt, and a way of explaining the rocky road of life.  For me, it seems to fit, more accurately than many others would have me believe.

So, I found a copy of The Satanic Bible by Anton LaVey.  I have started to read it (and for those worried about my immortal soul, I have also started to read The Quran, and The Christian Bible), and so far I have found some interesting outlooks on life that seem to fit in with today’s society.

It is not an easy religion to adopt in a society ruled so long by Puritan ethics. There is no false altruism or mandatory love-thy-neighbor concept in this religion. Satanism is a blatantly selfish, brutal philosophy. It is based on the belief that human beings are inherently selfish, violent creatures, that life is a Darwinian struggle for survival of the fittest, that only the strong survive and the earth will be ruled by those who fight to win the ceaseless competition that exists in all jungles – including those of urbanized society. Abhor this brutal outlook if you will; it is based, as it has been for centuries, on real conditions that exist in the world we inhabit rather than the mystical lands of milk and honey depicted in the Christian Bible.

That quote is by Burton H. Wolfe (from the prologue of The Satanic Bible) stands out to me.  I have found myself drawing the same conclusion about life and people, on my own, by my own experiences.  I have always felt that religion should be self evident, the rules spoken clearly by interactions with people and the world in general.  So far, I am quite surprised to say that The Satanic Bible so far has represented the most pragmatic and realistic viewpoint of how to view and deal with life.

I will read on, take on the lessons that I need to learn, and maybe I have found something that I can hang my hat on and fill the void in my life?

This is beyond words…

http://www.dailymercury.com.au/storydisplay.cfm?storyid=3788552

Please sign the petition here:  http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/maximum-penalty-for-the-men-who-hacked-up-a-puppy

I don’t care how mentally fucked up they are, Trent William Cunniffe and Jonathon Connor Blake should rot in hell after what they did.  Give the two of them as much leniancy and care as they gave that puppy…. none.