Strangetimez

Okay – so if you think Im blurting out a bunch of posts in quick succession, you aren’t wrong, but Im just catching up on a few things Ive been meaning to post for awhile… its been a big transition moving to Hobart.  That’s my excuse and Im sticking to it.

Anyways, I have been playing a fair bit of the Guitar Hero range of games, and have taken to drums a lot more than I ever expected to.  Well, I keep playing them and the guitar doesnt get much attention.  Plus, I like the fact that the drums are a lot closer to playing a real instrument than the other ‘toys’.

Band Hero is my current regular play, and the top contenders for my favourite songs are Evanescence’s Bring Me To Life, No Doubt’s Don’t Speak, and 3 Doors Down’s When Im Gone.  Great songs, and lots of fun to play.  I looked up the lyrics to When Im Gone, and found it interesting.  It really struck a chord with me (hehe – musical pun intended).  The two verses are rather close to home for me too… kinda puts my struggles with life into words better than I could

“When I’m Gone”

There’s another world inside of me
That you may never see
There’re secrets in this life
That I can’t hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There’s a light that I can’t find
Maybe it’s too far away…
Or maybe I’m just blind…

Or maybe I’m just blind…

[Chorus]
So hold me when I’m here
Right me when I’m wrong
Hold me when I’m scared
And love me when I’m gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I’ll never let you down
Even if I could
I’d give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I’m here
Right me when I’m wrong
You can hold me when I’m scared
You won’t always be there
So love me when I’m gone

Love me when I’m gone…

When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won’t tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I’m alive but I’m alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

[Chorus]

Or maybe I’m just blind…

[Chorus]

Love me when I’m gone…

Love me when I’m gone
When I’m Gone
When I’m Gone
When I’m Gone

If anyone is interested, the real meaning behind the song isn’t a brain twister, but nice to know that the words, music, and beat convey the meaning very well.  Oh, and the official music video is here.

Well – seems that we are well on the way to being a communist country… not that Communism is necessarily a bad thing, but the amount of controls the Australian Government wants to impose on us is getting scary.  Im really dissapointed with “the lucky country”, when these types of controls being put in place say either that the Australian Government believes we cannot make educated decisions for ourselves, or that they believe they should control much more of what we do and say.  Or, maybe they are just stupid and short sighted?

A few of the highlights:

• The Australian Governemnt wants ISPs (Internet Service Providers) to record ALL browsing history.  Basically watch every web site we visit.  The article explains it best, and the problems that should be obvious to most.
• More on the recording of our browsing habits
• Even Time magazine is stepping in to condemn the Australian Government’s plans.
• Google also voices serious concerns over the Australian Government’s plans.
• If that’s not enough, even the US Government is condemning the Australian Government’s plans.

As per my usual run of luck, just when I thought I had finally met someone who I could spend the rest of my life with, and when I really saw a future, the ol’ rug of happiness got yanked out from under me.  I swear Im either trapped in some shitty reality show or soapie, or some god up there is having a lot of fun with my suffering.  I really give up.  Nothing excites me any more, and when I found someone who did, of course life veers completely off course.  Ive tried everything, and nothing works anymore… I mostly feel nothing anymore, and when that changes, its usually more shitty than nothing 

If you are reading this, no I don’t want to talk about it…

Well, it was interesting to go back and read some of my older posts, especially to see how perspectives can change so drastically, so quickly.

Short version – Ive met someone who Im definitely falling for.  She is incredible, fun, happy, spontaneous, caring, kind, sexy, cheeky, energetic (I could keep going!).  I still wake up and wonder if its real or I was dreaming… but it isnt a dream!  Its amazing, I never thought I would ever find someone who shares a connection on so many levels, and is happy to let me be completely myself.  Meeting her even changed my perspective of the world.  Things that used to bother me, just dont anymore.  Its great, and such a new feeling… I guess I feel like a high school kid with his first girlfriend

So, it seems that I have joined  one of the popular belief system of the world – that there is such a thing as true love, which apparently means I no longer live in the real world and am now as crazy as a fair chunk of the population! 

I thought I would start recording all the things I have learned about life, maybe in an effort to clear my head a bit.  Maybe as a bit of an experiment… Also a way to vent my frustrations at the world… whatever the reason, here they are.  In no particular order…

1. People are selfish and rude
2. Not everyone is selfish and rude, but most are.  A few will surprise you
3. Ignorance really is bliss
4. No matter how much you try to prepare for something, something you hadn’t thought of will almost always happen
5. People are deluded and do not live in reality
6. Living in reality sucks, and thus why people delude themselves
7. The world isnt as nice and as good as people will have you believe
8. Most people take and dont give
9. When someone strenuously objects to something, its usually because its true
10. People often project their problems onto others (Transference)
11. If you want to see the worst in people, go for a drive when traffic is busiest
12. If you want to see the best in people, look at a disaster, war, or other tragedy.  Difficulty, trouble, and adversity seems to bring people together.
13. People like drama and trouble, and thats why ‘Reality TV’ is popular
14. There is no one path in life, everyone has their own, and some are easier than others
15. Dont judge someone too quickly, but trust your instincts
16. People love to talk about themselves, and don’t want to hear about you very often
17. If you are nice to others, and helpful, you will get used by most people
18. Women are selfish, ambiguous, confusing, have no idea of their emotions
19. Complimenting people just makes them arrogant and self centered, and you will not be appreciated or respected for it.  You will just get used.
20. Everyone lies, even to those that may matter.
21. The few who do not lie do not get respected for it
22. People mostly only care about themselves.  If they care about someone else, its only usually only to pad their own ego
23. Love makes you vulnerable and weak, and you will be exploited for it, or it will be thrown in your face

Im sorry to see that Michael Jackson has passed away at aged 50.   His music had a big effect on my life, and many of his songs bring back some of the most important and happiest moments of my life.  He will be missed by many I am sure.  At least now he is finally at peace after such a turbulent life.

I found this really interesting article… its a long read though.  One excerpt that I like is this one:

Vaillant’s confession reminded me of a poignant lesson from his work—that seeing a defense is easier than changing it. Only with patience and tenderness might a person surrender his barbed armor for a softer shield. Perhaps in this, I thought, lies the key to the good life—not rules to follow, nor problems to avoid, but an engaged humility, an earnest acceptance of life’s pains and promises. In his efforts to manifest this spirit, George Vaillant is, if not a model, then certainly a practiced guide. For all his love of science and its conclusions, he returns to stories and their questions. When I asked him if there was a death that had affected him, he mentioned Case No. 47—“Alan Poe”—an inspiring, tragic man, who left many lessons and many mysteries, who earnestly sought to “squeeze that lemon.”